Cancer is a cruel bitch. Tomorrow I have to attend a funeral of a man who failed to live to see his 45th birthday, which is heart breaking in and of itself.
What's really sad is that this isn't a shock anymore. This is not the first funeral I've attended of a cancer victim and I know it won't be the last. What makes this more poignant is that the first person I lost to *C* had the same type down to the minute details that this person struggled with so I don't have to imagine what he and his family and friends went through over these past months. I already know.
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Friday, 17 May 2013
Tuesday, 23 April 2013
Family First
Well as you can well understand family must come first. As my nephews other set of grandparents aren't available for a couple of weeks we are looking after my youngest nephew every day.
As well as doing the school pickups ourselves so my time generally devoted to being online as well as on my own hobbies is greatly curtailed.
As such excuse my absence in the next couple of weeks.
Wednesday, 10 April 2013
Snow ... YK !!!!!
I noticed that the forecast is for snow .... again !!!!!
Please don't let it come true, I'm fed up with the continual attacks of snow we keep having. It wouldn't be so bad if the payoff was any half decent summer weather but we haven't had more than the odd day - or in most cases a few hours - of relative sunshine since the bad bad bad winter of 2010.
If nothing else I would like some time where I could save my family on heating bills as the continual price increases are bad enough without having to burn our heating in the supposedly 'summer' time of year.
My parents received their bill for the last quarter just a couple of weeks ago and it was almost £400 ... and that's before the latest increase hits us. And people think we are exaggerating when we say that our DLA is crucial for things like heating because I know that my bad reaction to cold and damp has led to our heating being on a lot more than my parents themselves need.
Luckily my Mother believes in paying all year long into credit but that doesn't make the higher bills hurt us financially any less just because my Mother plans for it and continues saving/adding to our credit during the times when we don't actually burn our heating.
Please don't let it come true, I'm fed up with the continual attacks of snow we keep having. It wouldn't be so bad if the payoff was any half decent summer weather but we haven't had more than the odd day - or in most cases a few hours - of relative sunshine since the bad bad bad winter of 2010.
If nothing else I would like some time where I could save my family on heating bills as the continual price increases are bad enough without having to burn our heating in the supposedly 'summer' time of year.
My parents received their bill for the last quarter just a couple of weeks ago and it was almost £400 ... and that's before the latest increase hits us. And people think we are exaggerating when we say that our DLA is crucial for things like heating because I know that my bad reaction to cold and damp has led to our heating being on a lot more than my parents themselves need.
Luckily my Mother believes in paying all year long into credit but that doesn't make the higher bills hurt us financially any less just because my Mother plans for it and continues saving/adding to our credit during the times when we don't actually burn our heating.
Monday, 8 April 2013
Update
Well it's just a quick update from me today again. Tomorrow my Uncle - who passed away last week - is due to be cremated at 12.30pm. So I have to go across town at around noon and try to get a decent parking space as close to the crematory that I can so I don't have to mobilise too far given how much pain I am living in at the moment. It's more than usual and that's saying something.
Some of my problems is due to the over doing that I have been doing but as I had no other alternative or option I had to 'over-do' more than usual over the past two weeks. Unfortunately I haven't been able to rest more to recover during this past week while my brother is on holiday with his family and I have a break from child minding duties.
Shame but RL does not give you breaks just because you desperately need them.
Some of my problems is due to the over doing that I have been doing but as I had no other alternative or option I had to 'over-do' more than usual over the past two weeks. Unfortunately I haven't been able to rest more to recover during this past week while my brother is on holiday with his family and I have a break from child minding duties.
Shame but RL does not give you breaks just because you desperately need them.
Wednesday, 3 April 2013
Excuse Me
First excuse any absense at the moment, we have experienced a death in the family so life outside cyber space is quite hectic keeping all the 'balls in the air' so to speak.
I had planned a few well thought out pieces to begin preparing for my blog here over the Easter break while I no longer had child minding and school runs to interrupt my daily chores. Unfortunately such as losses can't be scheduled so I apologise in advance if I don't get back to what I hope will be my fluid schedule which I have been trying - without much success - to get up and running since the start of the year.
I had planned a few well thought out pieces to begin preparing for my blog here over the Easter break while I no longer had child minding and school runs to interrupt my daily chores. Unfortunately such as losses can't be scheduled so I apologise in advance if I don't get back to what I hope will be my fluid schedule which I have been trying - without much success - to get up and running since the start of the year.
Thursday, 3 January 2013
Another Day
Another day is gone already. My brother dropped his boys off at our house around 11 am saying he would be back between 1 and 2 that afternoon and asked if we could feed them lunch as well.
We headed off to the supermarket after putting the youngest two's Kindle Fire HD tablets on charge for them. We got home just after noon and fed the boys lunch.
Both 1 and 2 pm came and went without any sign of my brother or contact via phone, then at just before 4 pm my brother arrived to pick up the boys. We figure he might have went home after he had completed his tasks and brought down and put away his Christmas decorations without the boys being underfoot.
The new Wii game I bought for the boys arrived today and they spent most of the afternoon playing with it, at least the youngest two did, while the edlest watched what passes for children's TV these days.
So that's how my day went.
We headed off to the supermarket after putting the youngest two's Kindle Fire HD tablets on charge for them. We got home just after noon and fed the boys lunch.
Both 1 and 2 pm came and went without any sign of my brother or contact via phone, then at just before 4 pm my brother arrived to pick up the boys. We figure he might have went home after he had completed his tasks and brought down and put away his Christmas decorations without the boys being underfoot.
The new Wii game I bought for the boys arrived today and they spent most of the afternoon playing with it, at least the youngest two did, while the edlest watched what passes for children's TV these days.
So that's how my day went.
Monday, 17 December 2012
Seasons Greetings
So Christmas is fast approaching once again and in a week we will be getting ready for the last ‘sleep’ before Santa as the children’s programmes keep informing us.
This coming week will undoubtedly be the busiest for myself and my family, what with getting ready for the actual day, finishing shopping for stocking fillers, finish wrapping (started doing this this afternoon!), delivering wreaths to my family graves, three different graves at two different cemeteries (which is scheduled for Wednesday), grocery shopping for the festive break (scheduled for Sunday the 23rd, the 23rd being our preferred day leaving Christmas Eve for preparing food and any emergency items we need to rush to the supermarket for before early closing time).
And those are just the tip of the iceberg for the coming week, also tomorrow (Tuesday) and Thursday are childminding days when we look after my youngest nephew then put him into his nursery class at 1pm. Also my youngest nephew has come down with a stomach bug which is a shame as he is just getting over a horrid cold.
Also my eldest nephew is going into the hospital on Thursday to have an operation on his big toe, he has a horrid ingrown toenail which is causing the toe to become continually badly infected. It’s an in-patient appointment for a short operation which means he goes in early (around 8am actually) and hopefully will get out in the late afternoon at the latest.
Also on Thursday (or Friday) depending on my schedule (with my eldest nephew going into hospital that day we might have the school run and feeding the eldest two that afternoon/night) to drive across town and hand in our (my parents and I as well as a couple of small things on behalf of my nephews) presents for our aunt into her house as well as pick up the bags she generally has. Not all ours, mostly gifts for my three nephews, my brother and sister-in-law as well as our own from her to save my Dad struggling home on the bus with multiple bags of gifts.
So all in all a busy busy week!!
So hopefully it will be worth it on the day(s) to come.
So if I don’t get back to you before then, have a great holiday season regardless of your religion or beliefs on the season, I wish you all well and hope you have a great time.
This coming week will undoubtedly be the busiest for myself and my family, what with getting ready for the actual day, finishing shopping for stocking fillers, finish wrapping (started doing this this afternoon!), delivering wreaths to my family graves, three different graves at two different cemeteries (which is scheduled for Wednesday), grocery shopping for the festive break (scheduled for Sunday the 23rd, the 23rd being our preferred day leaving Christmas Eve for preparing food and any emergency items we need to rush to the supermarket for before early closing time).
And those are just the tip of the iceberg for the coming week, also tomorrow (Tuesday) and Thursday are childminding days when we look after my youngest nephew then put him into his nursery class at 1pm. Also my youngest nephew has come down with a stomach bug which is a shame as he is just getting over a horrid cold.
Also my eldest nephew is going into the hospital on Thursday to have an operation on his big toe, he has a horrid ingrown toenail which is causing the toe to become continually badly infected. It’s an in-patient appointment for a short operation which means he goes in early (around 8am actually) and hopefully will get out in the late afternoon at the latest.
Also on Thursday (or Friday) depending on my schedule (with my eldest nephew going into hospital that day we might have the school run and feeding the eldest two that afternoon/night) to drive across town and hand in our (my parents and I as well as a couple of small things on behalf of my nephews) presents for our aunt into her house as well as pick up the bags she generally has. Not all ours, mostly gifts for my three nephews, my brother and sister-in-law as well as our own from her to save my Dad struggling home on the bus with multiple bags of gifts.
So all in all a busy busy week!!
So hopefully it will be worth it on the day(s) to come.
So if I don’t get back to you before then, have a great holiday season regardless of your religion or beliefs on the season, I wish you all well and hope you have a great time.
Thursday, 6 December 2012
Apologies
Excuse my lack of updates here, but my PC died and had to go away to be possibly fixed. It was away for around a month when it was finally returned by the courier service fixed with a new PSU installed inside the tower itself.
Since it returned a couple of weeks back or so it's been tricky. Half the time it crashes when I attempt to shut down which concerns me. So I'm babying it as I think it's not quite right. While the new part got the darn thing to switch on, which it wasn't doing hence the need to send it away to the repair-shop but I think it's dying slowly. So I've spent the past week or so transferring content off my PC to external drives so if it does die again I won't suffer too much of a loss to personal data.
Since it returned a couple of weeks back or so it's been tricky. Half the time it crashes when I attempt to shut down which concerns me. So I'm babying it as I think it's not quite right. While the new part got the darn thing to switch on, which it wasn't doing hence the need to send it away to the repair-shop but I think it's dying slowly. So I've spent the past week or so transferring content off my PC to external drives so if it does die again I won't suffer too much of a loss to personal data.
Monday, 1 October 2012
Monday Already?
It's Monday morning already, and I have had a very bad night last night. I kept waking with pains in my ribs which also made me feel sick to my stomach at the same time. Between waking, breathing through pain and trying not to throw up I barely slept a wink last night.
Very bad as I had to get up I had to up early this morning to get to my brother's house before he left for work at 8 am. He is due to have a repair man come look at a problem with his new side board sometime today, afternoon he thinks but he lost the slip of paper with the correct time frame on it, so it could be any-time.
Also as my sister-in-law's grandfather is due out of hospital sometime today her Mother wanted to switch child minding days from tomorrow to today. So we have my youngest nephew to not only put into preschool but also the two youngest to pick up just after 3 pm from two different primary schools. Both my brother and sister-in-law are primary school teachers and have parents night both tonight and Wednesday this week.
I am totally knackered. Fighting to keep awake after my bad night and my ribs are still painful and even breathing hurts at the moment. Also today we have to fit in our grocery shopping which we usually do Monday mornings, petrol as my car is getting really low, a preschool drop off, two school pick ups and a repairman at my brothers house to see to. My Father is also sitting in at our house as we have a plumber due this week, no firm day but an AM call. So he's having to sit in our house in case the plumber calls today, if he doesnt arrive by noon he is walking along to sit in here while I go for lunch for my nephew and us, then he will also sit in when we do the drop off and pick ups.
Very bad as I had to get up I had to up early this morning to get to my brother's house before he left for work at 8 am. He is due to have a repair man come look at a problem with his new side board sometime today, afternoon he thinks but he lost the slip of paper with the correct time frame on it, so it could be any-time.
Also as my sister-in-law's grandfather is due out of hospital sometime today her Mother wanted to switch child minding days from tomorrow to today. So we have my youngest nephew to not only put into preschool but also the two youngest to pick up just after 3 pm from two different primary schools. Both my brother and sister-in-law are primary school teachers and have parents night both tonight and Wednesday this week.
I am totally knackered. Fighting to keep awake after my bad night and my ribs are still painful and even breathing hurts at the moment. Also today we have to fit in our grocery shopping which we usually do Monday mornings, petrol as my car is getting really low, a preschool drop off, two school pick ups and a repairman at my brothers house to see to. My Father is also sitting in at our house as we have a plumber due this week, no firm day but an AM call. So he's having to sit in our house in case the plumber calls today, if he doesnt arrive by noon he is walking along to sit in here while I go for lunch for my nephew and us, then he will also sit in when we do the drop off and pick ups.
Wednesday, 20 June 2012
End of June Almost!!
See a theme in my recent postings? Well it's the 20th of June already and I haven't been able to post to my blogs much, translation at all, recently.
Saturday, 3 March 2012
Let's Talk About It
We are inundated with unsolicited advice when we go out in public, so much so we dread travelling outside our house.
Will parking in the supermarket and displaying my blue badge mean some random stranger to launch a scrounger hate filled rhetoric in my direction? Or will this be the time that it stops being verbal and turns to something physical? Is it worth the risk to find out?
These are thoughts that I wrestle with more and more these days, every retelling from another disabled individual fuels my fear for my own safety while doing something that millions do everyday. Shop for food.
Disabled hate crime is disgusting, even more disgusting is that it's those charged with supporting and helping us have any kind of life who is fuelling this fire of hatred.
Discrimination of all types is morally and legally wrong.
Why is disabled hate crimes not considered just as vile as someone verbally and physically attacking another person because of their skin colour, religion or sexual orientation?
Will parking in the supermarket and displaying my blue badge mean some random stranger to launch a scrounger hate filled rhetoric in my direction? Or will this be the time that it stops being verbal and turns to something physical? Is it worth the risk to find out?
These are thoughts that I wrestle with more and more these days, every retelling from another disabled individual fuels my fear for my own safety while doing something that millions do everyday. Shop for food.
Disabled hate crime is disgusting, even more disgusting is that it's those charged with supporting and helping us have any kind of life who is fuelling this fire of hatred.
Discrimination of all types is morally and legally wrong.
Why is disabled hate crimes not considered just as vile as someone verbally and physically attacking another person because of their skin colour, religion or sexual orientation?
Friday, 2 March 2012
Mad March
Well, it's better than any of the other blog titles I could think of!
My Dabs order was despatched last night, logged into sorting depot at midnight and left sorting depot sixty seconds later heading for the delivery depot I would suppose. Since then to change or update on the tracking service.
Tomorrow is shaping up to be a very busy day for me as my brother is dropping off his three boys while he and his wife head out of town to Costco who apparently have a sale going on and some items they are interested in are in it.
We had to do our violin school run again as my eldest nephew forgot to pick up his violin this morning and left it on his bed, so had to head to brother's house, pick it up and head back across town to drop it off during lunchtime so that he would have it for his lesson in the afternoon.
My youngest nephew is really getting into the computer, it's the return of the 'Magic Desktop', a built in piece of software which creates a kiddie-safe desktop which various puzzles, games and even a note pad application for younger children wanting to learn to safely use a computer. When I got my PC three or so years ago it was my middle nephew who spent all his time visiting us after nursery playing with the computer, now it's the youngest. Now if only I can get him to stop crashing the program and jamming my PC by crazy clicking or continually holding down the mouse.
So I think I'll head to bed early tonight because I know they will be here early tomorrow and they never are ones to let me sleep in any.
I have set up my YouTube channel for this blog and now just need to get some videos made and uploaded. The only problem is I tend to get side tracked and ramble completely off in an unexpected direction, have difficulty vocalizing my thoughts and other problems when I try to record some short *snort* videos. Last one I was talking about the Work Program and how it reminded me of my own experience on the YTS between 16 and 18 and before I knew it I had recorded over half an hour of rambles about my *excuse the misnomer* experience on work placement under this scheme.
My Dabs order was despatched last night, logged into sorting depot at midnight and left sorting depot sixty seconds later heading for the delivery depot I would suppose. Since then to change or update on the tracking service.
Tomorrow is shaping up to be a very busy day for me as my brother is dropping off his three boys while he and his wife head out of town to Costco who apparently have a sale going on and some items they are interested in are in it.
We had to do our violin school run again as my eldest nephew forgot to pick up his violin this morning and left it on his bed, so had to head to brother's house, pick it up and head back across town to drop it off during lunchtime so that he would have it for his lesson in the afternoon.
My youngest nephew is really getting into the computer, it's the return of the 'Magic Desktop', a built in piece of software which creates a kiddie-safe desktop which various puzzles, games and even a note pad application for younger children wanting to learn to safely use a computer. When I got my PC three or so years ago it was my middle nephew who spent all his time visiting us after nursery playing with the computer, now it's the youngest. Now if only I can get him to stop crashing the program and jamming my PC by crazy clicking or continually holding down the mouse.
So I think I'll head to bed early tonight because I know they will be here early tomorrow and they never are ones to let me sleep in any.
I have set up my YouTube channel for this blog and now just need to get some videos made and uploaded. The only problem is I tend to get side tracked and ramble completely off in an unexpected direction, have difficulty vocalizing my thoughts and other problems when I try to record some short *snort* videos. Last one I was talking about the Work Program and how it reminded me of my own experience on the YTS between 16 and 18 and before I knew it I had recorded over half an hour of rambles about my *excuse the misnomer* experience on work placement under this scheme.
Monday, 13 February 2012
Painful Me
My jaw/gum pain is battling against my joints and other painful areas to see who is the victor at the moment. The weekend just a cloud of pain-filled memories. Yuck!
After getting my tooth extracted on Friday I stood on my trembling legs in the dentist's reception area thanking all deities that I had my crutches to stop me landing in an undignified heap on the floor in front of the others there.
After getting my tooth extracted on Friday I stood on my trembling legs in the dentist's reception area thanking all deities that I had my crutches to stop me landing in an undignified heap on the floor in front of the others there.
Monday, 6 February 2012
Busy Week
This week is totally non-stop and as a result I won't be able to write the first 'real' post for this blog.
Originally I had two appointments, my usual Physiotherapy on Wednesday and the dentist's on Friday to get a tooth extracted. Easy on my non-existent energy level and pain level.
Today I had an incredibly early wake up call to go to my brother's before he left for work at 8am, this was the second day (last Thursday being the other) that I've waited in for his modem from BT to be delivered. He checked with BT again this lunchtime and found that the person in the call centre who on Friday said his replacement modem for the one which went awry last week in transit would arrive today was wrong. Two working days was needed for dispatch and it wouldn't be delivery till tomorrow.
So home again just after lunchtime and I'll be up early again tomorrow to go to his house and wait in for the delivery which hopefully will come this time. Third time lucky and all that!
Anyway if it doesn't arrive he is out of luck as I have appointments Wednesday through Friday now that I can't change to stay in his house to await delivery if it doesn't turn up tomorrow.
This afternoon the Occupational Therapist at the Council/Social Work department phoned about the referral she got from my OT at the hospital last week. She is coming Thursday at 11am to see me at home to assess these problems I'm having including not being able to use the overhead shower that she actually arranged to have installed for me about 8 years ago when we moved in here originally.
Also as the schools my three nephews attend go off for 3 days in-service training starting Thursday so we have them all for the entire day on Thursday. My Father is intending to take all three with him to pay our rent when the OT is due so that they won't get 'in the way' so to speak while she's here assessing me.
Friday I have an appointment in the morning to return to the dentist, I was there last Wednesday for a check-up and back on Friday past for a filling and the results of the x-ray I had taken, when I am due to have a tooth extracted.
Originally I had two appointments, my usual Physiotherapy on Wednesday and the dentist's on Friday to get a tooth extracted. Easy on my non-existent energy level and pain level.
Today I had an incredibly early wake up call to go to my brother's before he left for work at 8am, this was the second day (last Thursday being the other) that I've waited in for his modem from BT to be delivered. He checked with BT again this lunchtime and found that the person in the call centre who on Friday said his replacement modem for the one which went awry last week in transit would arrive today was wrong. Two working days was needed for dispatch and it wouldn't be delivery till tomorrow.
So home again just after lunchtime and I'll be up early again tomorrow to go to his house and wait in for the delivery which hopefully will come this time. Third time lucky and all that!
Anyway if it doesn't arrive he is out of luck as I have appointments Wednesday through Friday now that I can't change to stay in his house to await delivery if it doesn't turn up tomorrow.
This afternoon the Occupational Therapist at the Council/Social Work department phoned about the referral she got from my OT at the hospital last week. She is coming Thursday at 11am to see me at home to assess these problems I'm having including not being able to use the overhead shower that she actually arranged to have installed for me about 8 years ago when we moved in here originally.
Also as the schools my three nephews attend go off for 3 days in-service training starting Thursday so we have them all for the entire day on Thursday. My Father is intending to take all three with him to pay our rent when the OT is due so that they won't get 'in the way' so to speak while she's here assessing me.
Friday I have an appointment in the morning to return to the dentist, I was there last Wednesday for a check-up and back on Friday past for a filling and the results of the x-ray I had taken, when I am due to have a tooth extracted.
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